Im afraid my lord.
you know he always been carrying a good impression in my heart.
always.
But now Im starting to get disturbed by the way he behave and react.
I dun like it.
You want to know why the group is not growing.
You cant just ask us.
You think we are not doing our job?
Yes I admit we didnt do our best.
I do not know how to explain.
We wanted to, We tried, but often end up in another way.
Does he understand that feeling?
Can he share the same thoughts as us?
I doubt so. And I wonder.
Like he say, he have never been before as a CL.
Does he knows how to motivate coreteam to sow and evax?
He's already equipped with leaders, who have the driven heart.
He drive those who are driven.
How about us?
This is bad. This attitude is bad.
I know it. I know its bad and it is moving towards bitterness.
This is even more bad.
What to do God?
I dun want to end up being bitter towards him.
But I just cant take it any longer.
The way he treat us, or treat me.
Its like interrogating a criminal.
Like I done something wrong.
Like I didnt do what Im suppose to do.
Im trying..
Here we are struggling..
He is not with us. He can do the talking. But we who are in the battlefield, who can identify with us?
Can He?
God please answer me.
Or speak to Him what Im feeling right now.
I never imagine I could be angry with him.
And now I am.
What to do?
