Im very angry now,
he didn't mention me at all..
Alright..
He never once, appreciated me..
and Im so angry now..
so this is what I am to him..
I feel so depreciated?
upset.
very sad.
this is what I am to him.
sigh.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
jealousy?
Somehow or rather my heart turn sour,
when I heard that he's troubled with BGR issues.
Though when he's telling me about how he feel and all,
then I was like there to listen and help,
providing advices and encouragement,
somehow in my heart I was like what de!
I like you leh, and you're telling me you like this girl,
from outside the church and you're hurting,
cause you can't be together with the girl.
I can't just say just don't be with the girl,
and break off with her properly to him..
Cause some how or rather I will say it in a wrong motive ah.
My goodness, I feel so jealous about this,
and I sort of like him pretty much.
Yet somehow or rather.. It's not that strong as the beginning,
cause maybe Im knowing him better and he's not that good.
Cause pretty weak in his emotions and too self-afflicting ah.
Then like he's not interested in me also,
so dun want to dwell in it also ah.
See so many scary r/s failing in front of me in church as well,
i sort of don't dare to step into this r/s circle also.
And also I dun want to be the cause of the fall of man,
especially if the man is someone that I like.
That will be terrible.
and now this link to another issue.
its about her lor. its always because of her anyway.
Sort of I really dun like her and can't stand her.
but then this spirit is just so wrong man!
I dun no how to correct this attitude of mine ah.
The only thing im sure of is I can't face her lar.
I just feel she is damn proud and damn SELF praising.
and just dun like to be near her or even talk to her.
Hated her to certain extend, but I dun want to hate,
cause God want me to love everyone right.
but im not too sure this feeling in me is it correct a not.
or am I just bias and just prejudice against her?
Just because I just simply dun like her yah.
Yah i dun like the fact that she still have what she have,
after what she've done and all that have happen.
Idiotic.
I hate myself to think this way.
please correct me God!
when I heard that he's troubled with BGR issues.
Though when he's telling me about how he feel and all,
then I was like there to listen and help,
providing advices and encouragement,
somehow in my heart I was like what de!
I like you leh, and you're telling me you like this girl,
from outside the church and you're hurting,
cause you can't be together with the girl.
I can't just say just don't be with the girl,
and break off with her properly to him..
Cause some how or rather I will say it in a wrong motive ah.
My goodness, I feel so jealous about this,
and I sort of like him pretty much.
Yet somehow or rather.. It's not that strong as the beginning,
cause maybe Im knowing him better and he's not that good.
Cause pretty weak in his emotions and too self-afflicting ah.
Then like he's not interested in me also,
so dun want to dwell in it also ah.
See so many scary r/s failing in front of me in church as well,
i sort of don't dare to step into this r/s circle also.
And also I dun want to be the cause of the fall of man,
especially if the man is someone that I like.
That will be terrible.
and now this link to another issue.
its about her lor. its always because of her anyway.
Sort of I really dun like her and can't stand her.
but then this spirit is just so wrong man!
I dun no how to correct this attitude of mine ah.
The only thing im sure of is I can't face her lar.
I just feel she is damn proud and damn SELF praising.
and just dun like to be near her or even talk to her.
Hated her to certain extend, but I dun want to hate,
cause God want me to love everyone right.
but im not too sure this feeling in me is it correct a not.
or am I just bias and just prejudice against her?
Just because I just simply dun like her yah.
Yah i dun like the fact that she still have what she have,
after what she've done and all that have happen.
Idiotic.
I hate myself to think this way.
please correct me God!
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