perturbed.

seriously,
i really can't seems to discipline my own feelings.

seriously,
im so angry with lennon for placing randall to lead.
I dunno why,
i think it is my personal grudges or what.
But I just can't succumb under her leadership.
i feel like she's just someting stuck in between,
passing message and stuffs.
I dun understand why she must be there.
It worsen the speed and all that.

I know this is very very bad thinking.
But whatever ler!
I just want to splash everything out here.
Dun want to hold it back and let the anger keep burning inside me.
Oh gosh, i hate this feeling!
Seriously, I dun like it when lennon keep asking me to go find her.
I dun get it for some issues.
such as the camp, i only wanted to be involved and take part more.
Cause I really want to have more exposure.
Why he just keep limiting me inside?
Why must he do this?
For God's sake.
Why He just dun want to give me any opportunities?
HEY IM YOUR LEADER ALSO!

seriously.. im damn angry and irritated right now.
initially I still can hold it down and try to control.
now its getting out of control.
I dun wan this stupid idiot thing to hinder me in this xmas.

God please ah HELP me to get out of this!
I dun want this issue to come back again and again..
Its really very very irritatin!

Holy Holy.
get the crap out of my mind.
GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!